Confidence Crisis

Posted by on Jan 2, 2014 in Diary of a Startup | 0 comments

From January 2012:

“I have a confidence crisis at the moment, and I have this feeling that bringing the “right” person on will fix that, but I know it’s not true.

I am not so naïve as to think that if I believe this will be a success, then it will be. However there is something about strong belief in success that comes through in my voice when I talk to people. It’s confidence, which is something that I often lack, in part because I always see many different possibilities and perspectives, which makes me doubt the one I have carefully chosen. A fool can sound confident because he lacks understanding. We’ve all seen that!

Seeing both sides of an issue is a skill that serves me well as a lawyer. It doesn’t serve me well in this because it undermines my confidence.

Negative self talk is what will defeat me when the site is finally ready. This wonderful free publicity service where lawyers can earn extra money and get free marketing…and I’m wondering if they’ll take it. It’s not that easy to start something new in Indiana…we Hoosiers are not known for embracing change.

Part of my hopes for completely unrealistic instant success. I’m glad I have kept myself grounded and know that this will take years of work.”

Current Reflection: I’m so much more confident now that the site is finally running well and starting to enjoy some success. It’s been a year and I have not had one lawyer say anything negative about the site. Lawyers are happy that they’re getting referrals from the site. I have gotten such great positive comments. People are excited that it exists. I suspected that there were a lot of people just like me, wishing that this existed, but I didn’t know until I built it. Of course there are lawyers who are not interested, but it doesn’t bother me at all. I’m surprised that it really doesn’t bother me, but I have grown so much as a person through this process, and I am at an age when people generally aren’t growing a whole lot. This makes me truly pleased. I still don’t feel like I’m any more special than anyone else, but I don’t need to. I also don’t feel like anyone else is more special than I am, but I still appreciate the talents and skills that other people have.

It is true, though, Hoosiers don’t like change. I love us all anyway.

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